An amazing woman...

Today, amidst the chaos of breakfast, bowling, eating, celebrating, etc...Mark drove me to Ogden to go to my friend's memorial service. Her name was Sarah, she passed away Wednesday from mesothelioma cancer. She was diagnosed in April, I think, and at 31 years old she's gone. Below is her husband and step kids. I knew her husband really well too. We all worked together for a long time. Shaun and I on the same team for years.
As I was sitting there at the service I couldn't help but think how silly I was...Sarah has been in New York for the past months receiving treatment, but recently they came home. I wanted to go visit her, but I didn't thinking, "I don't want to bother them", "she has lots of other people that are closer to her that should take the time up that she has for visits," and "maybe next week." Actually, this last week was the week I was going to try and visit. I think I really missed out on a great opportunity, not only to let her know I cared, but to witness the great strength and courage that she displayed. What an amazing lady to go through this, and they said she was still cracking jokes and smiling until the end.
It's funny, because I promised myself that I wouldn't pass up an opportunity to tell someone how much I cared, after another friend had passed away. But, I found myself doing it-why? Selfish reasons-I wanted to remember her swinging on the swings in my backyard with her kids and mine laughing (that's the last time I saw her). More reasons, my mom's mom died of cancer when she was young-it was just too close to home to watch. I didn't think I could go and keep myself together, not only for me but for them.
Do I regret it? Yeah-and I knew I would. I just kept telling myself that there would be more time...